Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Time Zoom

I son't really know where all of the time went...but a lot has happened. My mom visited for a couple of weeks, our apartment flooded, we had a week long hotel stay due to the flood, everyone including the 4 cats have been sick, I have had a lot of recent orders, Cyler is SO MOBILE it is CRAZY, and I have tried really hard to stay busy and keep up with this crazy moving life! Needless to say, I am kinda exhausted. BUT, we are planning to move soon, which is awful and exciting at the same time. I am also going to be going back to school this summer to become a lactation consultant, which is so so so exciting. I can't wait. I am totally thrilled that I feel like I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life and it is something that has become so personal and such a huge part of my life, that I know I will be able to say I love my work when all is said and done. But, the juggling act is something I have never been good at, so thank GOD for Chris. He keeps me on track when all I want to do is lay around and cry haha.

On a wonderfully happy note, Cyler is turning into a little boy before our eyes. He is crawling like a MAD MAN and is SOOOO close to walking its crazy. He can stand on his own but is so cautious that he just eases himself into a squat when I let go of his little hands. He cruises the furniture like a champ and can get from point A to point B in record time! He waves "hi" to everyone and is just pure joy. His favorite thing to do these days seems to be anything with the kitties. He loves to crawl up to them and simply rest his head on them to give them little kitty hugs. When he happens upon one accidentally, like while he is cruising the couch - he squeals and bounces up and down with excitement. I still can't believe this little love is all mine. He is such a wonderful little baby and his little personality keeps looking better and better every day. Still not sure what we did to deserve such an awesome kid, but how lucky are we?!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

New things in 2011

So, a lot has been going on lately. I debated whether or not I would share this so publicly, but here it is....Chris and I have been going to couple therapy for various reasons, and pretty much immediately, our therapist suggested that it sounded as if I was suffering from PTSD. I was a little shocked and a little relieved. So, now I am in therapy with my own therapist, trying to make sense of it all and work through all this crap I have been pushing aside. I am so ready to have a life worth living. While the past few years have been wonderful for many reasons, I have been struggling, off and on, to maintain "happiness" or even contentment. I am looking forward to a brighter future and am now working on setting and keeping my goals, and trying to do things that can only influence my life in a positive way. I have so SO much to be thankful for and do feel so incredibly blessed to have a beautiful, amazing son (who is growing too fast) and a man who loves me and will stick by me to see me through to the "other side" of this mess.
On a lighter note, Cy has gotten past this awful "anti-sleep" phase it seems. He is finally sleeping better again and is such a happy, smiley baby. Now that he sits up on his own, he is much happier just sitting on the floor, playing with toys. It makes life a lot easier around here for sure! He is such a delight! I cannot believe he is almost 6 months old..half way to a year! And, of course, I am already planning his 1st birthday bash! Cannot even wait to plan a birthday party for a baby!
Also - check my etsy shop tomorrow - I am going to be making/posting a TON of new babylegs! :)